Hello Hello Hello! While finishing my first semester of english, I have successfully completed five novels. This is very unusual for me to finish this many books because I’m not a typical bookworm. Am I disappointed with the amount of time I’ve spent reading? Answering this honestly, yes. But it is quite difficult for an average high school student to find time for reading. Keeping up with the massive amounts of homework along with any possible extracurricular activities, it becomes difficult to create hours to do things for fun. To add to the hours of schoolwork, how is getting a healthy eight to ten hours of homework possible? I am disappointed in myself, but I know I will find the time eventually to rekindle my daily reading habits.
I have just completed my fifth book, The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison. The story comprises of a narrative of three girls. One scene in particular really sparked my interest and made me come to a realization of how many people that I have relations with feel. In the novel, one of the main characters, Pecola, dealt with a major situation of trying to fit in. All her life she dealt with the constant bullying of her appearance. She came to a place where she believed if she had blue eyes, she would be loved and her life would change for the better. This brings up the main idea of trying to become someone whom you aren’t.
Caution! Spoilers ahead!
To cohere with those around you means to lose all sense of your specific personality and become like everybody else. I have felt in many specific situations like Pecola. Like I needed to wear the same thing as everyone around me to fit in, to act like everyone else and lose all sense of self. As I grow more and more each day, I become more like myself. My personality shows and through this, I have become happier. Pecola, “a little black girl [that] yearns for the blue eyes of a little white girl” believes in order to have flawlessness, “yearning is exceeded only by the evil of fulfillment” (Morrison 204). She comes to a state of hopelessness and finds herself at a church asking for blue eyes. What she doesn’t realize is that the minister did not perform his task of changing her eyes. Eventually she develops extreme mental problems while constantly putting into her mind that she has the most perfect life. Individuals of our society have difficulties addressing certain problems that occur in one’s lifetime. I have personally dealt with this type of attitude. I reached a point where my grades weren’t to my standards, but I played it off as if they were fine. I became careless until I began to comprehend that I wasn’t applying myself as I should. This book has given me the realization that everyone is perfect. We are all unique and we don’t need to transform our lives into someone else's. If we release all sense of self, we lose our individuality which provides no spontaneity in our world. Fulfill the life you were supposed to and you will overall become a more joyful and loved human being.
